SGGS Angg 792
Raag Suhi – Bhagat Kabir Ji.
A jeev isteri trembles at the thought of what awaits her. She has led a wasted life, and old age has crept upon her. In her old age, she tries to wipe out her sinful lekhas, but finds it exhausting.
She says, my weak, infant like soul, trembles in fear; I do not know how my Husband Lord will deal with me.
“Tharhar kampey bala jio; na jaano kya karsee Piyo.”
The nightime of my life (where I was in total darkness of ignorance), has passed by. I hope my days now (when there is some realisation) do not just waste away; the bumble bees (symbol for black hair), have flown away, and the pretender cranes (which have white feathers – symbol for grey hair), have settled on my head.
“Rain gayee matt dinn bhi jaaye; bhavar gaaye bagh bethay aaye.” (rahao).
She knows her body pitcher is unbaked yet, i.e. it has not been perfected by Bani. She says, water cannot stay in the unbaked clay pot (i.e. it is perishable); when the soul swan departs, the body withers.
“Kache karhve rahey na paani; hans chaleya kaaiyan kumlanee.”
She realises she has decorated herself for physical union with worldliness, but has not decorated herself with internal gunn of Naam, which are the decorations Her Husband Lord approves and likes.
She says, I have decorated myself like a woman readying herself for marriage; but how can enjoy the joys of marriage without my Husband Lord?
“Kuaar kanya jaiseh kartt shingaraa; kyo raliyah maane bajh Bhatara.” (In Gurbani, Shabad is Bhataraa – “Sacha Shabad Bhataar hai sada sada ravaiye.” – Ang 311).
My arms are tired from driving away the crows (symbol for sins – lekha); Kabir says, this is the way such a story ends.
“Kaag udavat bhuja piranee; kaho Kabir eh katha siranee.”
Shabad Viakhya by Bhai Manjeet Singh Ji
Shahad Kirtan available on YouTube